nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 12:25 pm

I'm typing away as fast as I can, on this Computer, this IBM of mine. Hopefully my fingers can type at the speed of my thoughts, elaborating and making sense of the random thoughts, and subjects, as they flood my humble little mind.

Batam is in 4 days on a little fishing village called Kasu. A lovely place, I anticiapte, with nothing but serenity, peace, and good fresh fish. I think I'll be there to spend a lot of time reflecting to myself, my actions for the past year, as well as my further ambitions, after my full-time National Service commitments are done.

In an ideal world, the law is always just, always impartial. But in reality, it's not so easy. Man tries to be fair to everyone. But, there's always biasness and prejudice in judgement, which makes upholding the law in the most ideal way, difficult. Every one commits a crime in their life time. Criminals are those who get caught.

A storm is brewing. And slowly, the situation is getting bleak. The elements are getting weak, and are beginning to break under pressure. Introduction of new elements into the compund, is making it weak, unstable, and extremely volatile.

I've got a long and early day tomorrow.

I love you, Su. Thanks for a wonderful weekend.

And this weekend, we'll have a great time at Kasu.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 6:03 pm

Memoirs of a Geisha is a really good movie, despite the controversy about it.

Coming from an uninformed, and indifferent movie-goer (like me), I felt that Zhang ZiYi, the cast, and the crew of this massive production, have indeed made some justice, to the Geisha, and the traditional Japanese Culture.

But one must understand, before this movie, that Geishas are not prostitutes, mistresses, concubines, or wives. Geishas are entertainers.

They are the best dancers, singers, and artists in the land. And it's the veil of mystery surrounding a Geisha's lifestyle, behind the white powder, that movie director Rob Marshall tries to portray in this movie.

Based on the book by the same name, written by Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha (MoG), tells the story of a young village girl, Chiyo, who gets taken away into the city, against her wishes, and that of her dying aged parents. Chiyo is sent to a okiyo or 'geisha house' where she learns the art of being a maiko, a junior geisha.

Initially reluctant, a chance meeting in the city with a rich and wealthy man (known as Chairman) through out the movie, moved her to want to be the best Geisha in the city, so as to win his heart. Shrouded by deceit, and lies, Chiyo learns the art of being a Geisha through Mameha, the best geisha during her time.

Chiyo learns the art well, and graduates to be Sayuri, a Geisha with spell-binding beauty, who grabs the attention of men.

Come the war, and series of unfortunate incidents, Sayuri is unable to capture the heart of the man she loves, till the end.

MOG, opens us to the secret world of the geisha. This captivating movie, is definitely a MUST WATCH for those who haven't seen it.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 12:30 am

Okay, the Number One reason for me being a Pisces is really lame.

But am I really what the stars say I am?

I was born on March 8th. So I can't deny that. How are the horoscopes defined anyway? Why can't I be a virgoan? Or a taurean? Or even a Ariesien? Read on. Maybe I'll justify my 'fishy' existence.

Isn't everyone overwhelmed by the enormity of the universe? If humans beings are so incredulously minute in the face of the universe, how then can we cause so much destruction on earth? If we are insignificant, why then do we feel a great sense of loss, when someone we really love goes away?

Jump first and think later? Yeah, right. I only jump if I'm sure that there are no immediate consequences. Later then we'll think about the consequences. MAYBE. Thinking about it, I think it's quite valid, especially in the way I handle relationships. Get into it first, then learn to love your girlfriend, by loving every new thing you know about her. A little adventurous, and somewhat old-fashioned (put this into the idea of an arranged Marriage), but learning to love is the single biggest lesson in life.

Can cut to the chase? Maybe not. People who know me know that I talk a lot, and beat around the bush. But I'm an assumed leader. I assume to be a leader when there are no other natural leaders, due to my extroverted nature. Is that cutting to the chase?

Way too easy going? Maybe. But Su would know how difficult it is to persuade me to go clubbing. Easily influenced is more like it. I wanna go club. I wanna see what MoS has to offer. I envy my friends who club, and those who declare their clubbing days over. What did I miss? I want to know.

Compassionate and Generous? *sniggers* "The things I do for you, is sometimes it's because I feel responsible, and it's my responsibility. But the others, it's because I care for you. When I have fallen in love with you, there's note a care in the world, but you." Generous? I'll give, for as long as I have, even if it means that I'm tight thereafter. Generosity? Compassion? Or would it mean caring for the less fortunate?

Do I deserve better? Nope. I already have the best. I've got supportive parents, a supportive supervisor, and a very supportive partner. I like it the way it already is. It could probably be better, but I'd be selfish to not acknowledge that they're already doing their best for me. Thanks.

"Where's the Reality?" What Reality? Reality is, at best, a human perception of what's real. But how then, can perception be real? Reality has to stop somewhere, before ideals, and fantasy set in. Being shaped like a Manhunt contestant, is an ideal. But being overweight, is real. But there are real people who are shaped like Manhunt men. Where does reality stop then?

Never thrown anything away? Maybe. I still have my old toys locked up in a treasure chest. The only things I've thrown away are old school notes, and old shoes. Wait a minute, my MUM does that. Okay. Maybe I haven't thrown anything away, before. Not even memories.

Su, You're the best thing that has happened to me, and I doubt I can be any happier without you in my life.
Right now, we're faced with personal problems, which we both must settle at our ends. But I do hope that I can continue to find the support you've given me all this while to tide it. You know I'll support you in anyway I can.

I just want you to know that you're indeed special in my life, and that you have made a difference in mine. Insignificant to the universe as you may be, you're definitely important to my world, and shaping me into the perfect man.

I love you, Su.

Thanks.

edited:

Ben, do take good care of yourself. There are people who still care, and I'm one of them. Call me, bro.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 12:29 pm

A big heart for everyone!

Used Adobe to make it. I think it looks smudgingly good.

It's time for a cheer, now that Chinese New Year is just around the corner. That means Batam too!

Come this 28th, me, Su, Bro Rudy, and some others will be basking in the seaside, with the smell of the sea, and the breeze of the sea, in our faces.

I don't know how to describe it any more.

I can't wait for it.

Some guys get all the luck.

But I got you. I love you, Su.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 8:06 pm

Sunday...

I love you, Su.

Here are 20 reasons why...

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 7:54 pm

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 11:37 pm

Salam Aidil Adha to all my Muslim Brothers and Sisters.

It was quite a hectic day for me. I missed my Aidil Adha prayers this morning due to the pouring rain, and I rushed down to the Wak Tanjong Mosque as I was already late. I was supposed to meet Idrus at 7.30, for the prayers, but I overslept, and came down at 9.30 am instead.

It was goats again. I've been doing this for the past 6 years, and this is the second year that I'm doing goats at the same place. In the previous years, I've been assisting to do sheep.

The difference between goats and sheep before they are slaughtered is that the goats tend to be more powerful, and 'vocal'. The sheep however, although seemingly gentle and tame, take a longer time to pass. There's no real difference in the meats, but according to some, mutton from sheep taste better as it is softer and contains more fat.

I can't testify that. To each, his own.

I'm drained. I got a small cut on my finger from the struggling creatures with horns, mind you. My nails seem sharper, hence the need to trim them before I get to work on Thusday.

I'll be on leave tomorrow. I need a rest. My back hurts, and I'm missing Su already.

I love you baby.


Su: Hot ain't She?

I've been noticing The Tuxedo trailer on TV.

I think Jennifer Love-Hewitt is hot too. Check her out on this cover of Maxim.


Jennifer: Fantabulous.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 10:51 pm

It has been a pretty exciting first week of 2006. It's one of those weeks where you don't really want to happen again.

The MENDAKI apppreciation tea went pretty well, with little notable occurences. Everyone was truly dashing, including Mr Nothern Soul himself. You should take a look at him, and the picture he took with the ladies.

This is just one of the times I wished I was him. *winz*

I've been up till late these past few nights. It can't be helped as I got my tests this week. Haiz. I hope that I didn't screw up Marx, and Weber to badly. Marxists ideals are anything but rosy. But the ideals of equality should be something that is replicated and echoed by the people who rule the different governments. Capitalism is the way to go. But where does society go from there? We've seen how the former Soviet Union tried to 'move on' to the next step in social development.

Post-modernity. That's what we're in right now. Modern is the 60's. Conformity, and rules. The infiltration of Infomation today is coercing individuals to be different from one another. No more rules. No more is being in fashion wearing what's hot. Fashion in itself today is being different from the rest. I bet Dolce & Gabbanna are scratching their scalps till they bleed, trying to make sense of it all.

Econs is getting interesting too. The total sepnding in a particular country (or market) is calculated by the total aggregate spending by the different components which are: Consumer expenditure, Investments on capital goods, expenditure by the Goverment (not including transfer payments), and net export. This is WAY more interesting than trying to explain the change in equilibrium price and quantity for a commodity X, given a change in the global demand for the product.

IBM? I'm lost. I think right new we're at Managerial-decision making. I have no comments about that.

Since the Siloso party, I've been wanting to party non-stop. MoS is beckoning, and Ben so wants to take me there. Mr Nothern Soul says, it's good and he partied till 5. And Johnny said that the 'special invites' queue was an hour long during the NYE. And where Ben goes, I bet it's ROCKING!

The week has been kind, but I've had better. Nonetheless, it didn't go wasted.

Always have faith in your partner, and never doubt what she can do. She'll suprise you at times with what she can do.

I love u, Su. I'm sorry for what heppened over the past few days.


Us: At the Mendaki AT after a night at Siloso

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- 8:43 pm

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