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Saturday, November 07, 2009
I only got So much to Give.

This is the part that I don't understand.

As a human, there's only so much that I can give; my energy, my time, me resources.
And when I've given my all, you can't expect more from me.
I'll break.

A saw a slew of interesting statuses and what nots, form FB, Twitter and MSN.
One struck me.

"love me when i least deserve it, because that is when i need it the most. "

I find it hard to comprehend this. Mentioned time and again, guys are really simple creatures. Understanding how we think, and why we do things, is simple and pure logic. No need to over-think on it.

And when we love, we give it our best.
But when you push us to the limit, cos of your plain, perhaps unthoughtful actions we break, cos there's only so much that we can take.

I don't get the part that the guy has to be forgiving.
I don't understand the part where we need to give in. And it's not as if we're stubborn creatures in to begin with.

I don't understand the part, where we need to be the tail, when we should be the head.

I can be stubborn, and I am, naturally.
I can be assertive, and I am, naturally.

Just like what I said to a girl previously, when the girl gets too troublesome or asks for too much, we move on.

Nice guys finish last? Perhaps. Cos we keep moving on, and taking detours, and enjoying the things we see, touch, hear and feel along the way.

Above everything being all grown up now, I realise that some things are only superficial, and to suspend judgment and give things a 2nd shot might give you good returns. I found that girl who doesn't stop to amaze me, the girl who's great company.
Cos at the end of the day, I can only commit the same mistake twice. And not for the third.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 11:33 AM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009
The Google Game

Oh, thanks Amirah for sharing this with me. Saw it on your video..

Basically what you're supposed to do, is to Google (or Yahoo!) your name, plus a verb.
*A verb is an action word if you don't already know...*

I tried a few, and I got these.
Oh, and I got lazy, so I just took the first result.

Bambang needs:
"Bambang needs more than an economic miracle to turn Indonesia around."

Bambang wants:
"Bambang wants Malaysians to play in Indonesian League."

Bambang will:
"Bambang will update the diagram and provide a note based on the comments. "

Bambang knows:
"Bambang knows what he should do but he indulge himself in his guilty pleasures"

Bambang has:
"Bambang has defended victims of torture, labor organizations, and women's rights. ..."

Ok, this is controversial...

Bambang should:
"Bambang should have resolved any problems with his first wife ..."

Bambang loves:
"Bambang loves his girlfriend."

Ok, I made that last one up. It doesn't exist.
But what doesn't exist doesn't mean it's not true. =)

Have fun people.
Flood ma tags!

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 4:30 AM

Friday, September 18, 2009
Poly Forum - Closing Speech

This was my closing speech, for the Polytechnic Forum 2009 presentation on the Erosion of Singapore's Cultural Identity.
This was presented to a full-house, auditorium. Amongst the audience, was Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, and principals from the 5 polys in Singapore.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

So, what’s next?

Youths are agents of change. Youths play a vital role in developing and shaping the future of Singapore’s Cultural identity. What we decide on today, would invariably affect the outcomes of tomorrow.

What is it that we can do in preserving our individual ethnic cultural identity, while also helping to further develop Singapore’s cultural identity? This is definitely not an easy topic to suggest recommendations for, especially when even we find it hard to even understand or define the Singaporean Cultural Identity. The fusion of the different cultures in Singapore, helped along with some government policies has caused the erosion of the original form of the cultures. And this has directly contributed to developing the Singaporean Cultural Identity.

On preserving something much closer to our hearts, our hawker culture needs to be preserved as well.
Can you imagine a Singapore without our Katong Laksa?
Can you imagine a Singapore without our Chilli Crab?
Can you imagine a Singapore without Chicken Rice, char kway teow or maybe even carrot cake?
Do we want to lose this wonderful, diverse food culture that we are privileged to have as Singaporeans?

I can’t live without it.

The erosion of our language culture is another challenge for us.

Here’s our dilemma. Good English can destroy the ability for Sg to create a Uniquely Singaporean Culture but the widespread use of Singlish can seriously affect our employability especially in this time and age, where it is not uncommon to have Singaporeans living and working abroad in large MNCs.

But one thing is certain, we cannot deny the fact that Singlish identifies a Singaporean especially when we’re abroad. For youth, speaking Singlish is natural, but that does not mean our youth cannot speak good English. We just need to know when to switch appropriately between the two.

What we suggest then, is to enhance the English syllabus for secondary schools. The youths, and the future generation must be trained from young, on how to distinguish between when it’s required to speak good and proper English, and when it’s perfectly okay to be speaking in Singlish.

Again, it is up to us, the youth, to decide for ourselves. Is Singlish something we should preserve? Or is it something we can do away with? Our decision today, would affect the outcomes of tomorrow.

Change is inevitable. Erosion of culture due to globalisation is inevitable. Over time, some practices and traditions may be left behind or put aside for the sake of economic and social development. However, we should be aware that our values must be retained. After all, it is our national shared values and other universal values that makes us who we are.

We are the leaders of tomorrow. It is up to us to decide, and decide now, what kind of society we would like to have in the future. The catalysts of change lie in us right now, and we can’t go on depending on our parents, teachers, or even our maids to effect the change into our future.

Do we forego our ethnic cultural identities in place of a common Singaporean cultural identity or do we continue having these dual identities in each of us? And I think having both is what makes us unique.

Think about defining what is a Singaporean...

Where do we come from?
What do we share?
When does it go wrong?
Why do we care?
How do we define us as we see?
So exactly, who are we?

Decide now. We are the agents of change.
Thank you and goodnight.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 8:16 PM

Sunday, September 13, 2009
I've always..

I've always enjoyed every moment spent with you.
I've always treasured the times we spent together.
I've always remembered you as the cheeky one.
I've always tried my best to be there for you, whenever I can.

I've always been inspired by the things you have done.
I've always been proud of the awards you have achieved.
I've always been supportive of the journeys you've wanted to embark on.
I've always been, where I've been.

I've always enjoyed the rides with you.
I've always enjoyed making you laugh with my silliness.
I've always enjoyed listening to you sing.
I've always enjoyed talking to you about the things you've always wanted to do.

If you think that for a moment, I've given up on you, never.
If you think that for a moment, I've given up on us, never.
IF you think that for a moment, I think that you're not good enough, never.
If you think that for a moment, even a short moment, I think about not making you happy, never either.

Cos, you're there in my darkest hour.
Cos, you're there to make me feel better.

Cos, you're you.

For better or worse,
Till death do us part,
I'll love you with every single bit of my heart,
I swear.

Loving you every single day.

Thanks.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 5:30 AM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The 4 Stages

Caught up with An-Nur earlier today.
It was a nice ending to the start of the week la. Discussing stuff..
But something struck me.

When it comes to loving, there's 4 distinctive stages.

The first, is the falling in love.
That's when everything is perfect. You're perfect for her, and she's perfect for you.
There's nothing in the world that can separate you.
That's when bitter is sweet, and sweet is sweeter.

Then comes, the tolerating.
This is when you've spent so much time together, cracks begin to appear.
That's when you learn of habits, and 'norms'.
That's when you start to dislike certain things, and love other things.
If you're strong enough as a couple, then overcoming this barrier would mean many more joyous times as lovers.
Tolerance strengthens love.
Many couples fail at this stage.

3rdly is the understanding.
This is the point of bliss.
This is when your actions, are guided by the feelings of your partner.
This is when you start to think about the partner more than yourself. You become selfless.
Usually the 2nd and 3rd stage overlap, and there's often little or no clear boundary between the two.
But the most obvious sign, is when you do it sincerely, and you feel that it's reciprocated.
Some couples fail at this stage. But usually it is after many many years.

4th stage, is the end.
At this stage, there's a sudden loss of the partner, either by death, or breakups.
That's when you feel lonely, or hurt, or regretful even.
This is the point when you feel at a loss, that you tell yourself, "You won't miss a person until it's gone."
This is a personally crucial point, cos it can make you a stronger person, or it can turn you into a weak and desperate being.

Personally, I feel that this cycle goes on and on. It is usually that people linger at the end, and that's where the idea of "the Rebound" comes along. No one likes being the rebound. It hurts.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 1:29 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009
Oh my my my

My Condolences go out to the family, and close friends of Sheng, and Clara.

They were great friends, and reasons behind their sudden passing still remain an uncomfortable truth to be told.
Some say suicide, others say murder. But I think it's an accident.

Nonetheless, they will be missed.

Rest well, my friends, in peace.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 4:36 PM

Monday, July 27, 2009
Finally

Finally.
After 12 weeks of researching, bitching, collating editing and more bitching, it's done.

FYP report completed.

Awaiting approval, but I suppose everything will be fine.

A week's break, and time to catch up with the loved one, and then its another 3 days of preparation for the presentation.

*yawns*

U won't believe what me and Asz did on Sat nite.
Even if I said it, you won't believe it.

LOL.

Take care everyone.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 8:50 PM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Wooo...

Baik ah.

Because of the eclipse today, the bike refused to start.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 3:29 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009
Eff Why Peee!

I hate it.

I think we're almost done.

But I'm still not seeing the full picture.

URGH!

Where's Total View when you need it!
RIght now its only periscope view.

In anycase, if you're wondering what's with the mess on the tagboard, its just me being mean to a girl. LIKE Uber mean.

You know how i can get, so yea.

Sue's away for a holiday.
And I miss her dearly.

Darling, if you read this, I jsut wanna tell you I miss you badly, tho it's only for 6 days. But it's ok. You can make it up with a carton of DFS Marlboro. LOL.

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 2:08 AM

Monday, June 29, 2009
Swine

Just got back from SGH.
4 Days MC.
Infected possibly from the RP Cluster.

24 hour wait for the lab results.

I have the flu, but I don't have the Swine *crosses fingers*.

Need to apply for LOA. Fucken Troublesome. Can I just do it at the One-Stop Centre?

4 days of being at home. Quarantine doesn't mean I can't be online, can I?

nakalboi. Another day is done;
- 1:25 PM

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